So week 2 weigh in was on Sunday. It has taken me until today to be able to write about it. I lost 0.2Kgs. That's it. I did 7+ hours of exercise- and according to my heart rate moniter, I was working hard. *BUT* I did not stick faithfully to my 1200 cals so I ended up with a measely 200g loss. Pooh.

I can't even believe it. I kept a diary (and yes even recorded the naughty things) and according to it's little inbuilt cals in v cals out calculator I should have lost 1.3kgs this week (I wasn't THAT bad with the food- just slightly over) but no. 200g.

I am not going to lie, it has been a bit of a motivation killer. Yesterday was a rest day (thank god) but MM got up in the night about 3 times last night and refused to go back to sleep. When the alarm went off this morning at 6.15am I thought "yeah right- good one" and hit snooze. Grrr now I have to fit in the 90 mins exercise when I get home from work- somewhere between dinner and bed. Not the best choice to have made.

I am trying to find motivation from somewhere and have googled before and after pics. Sometimes it helps to see that people who started from much worse beginnings to me have made it to what I would consider my ideal body. hopefully it's enough to get my booty shakin' tonight before bed. On a positive note- this week I have been sticking to the 1200 so if I can just make sure I fit the exercise in with NO excuses then hopefully this week will see some proper results.

I have an appointment with my therapist tonight- maybe we can talk about how I sabotage myself whenever it looks like I am on my way to achieving my goals. Honestly anyone would think I am afraid of success.